I have never wanted to scream in your face so much in my life.

' I miss you so much. I miss having my best friend, yet I know I can’t just tell you because you’ve moved on so much in your life that you just left me behind. But not everyone else. I miss the days where you used to be so easy to speak to, you would be there when I needed you most, and you promised me that you would be there for me forever. I hate how it has all changed now. Whenever I even try and talk to you now you don’t even bother to reply, the ODD chance you ever try and make plans with me it isn’t off your own back. Maybe you did sugar coat everything for me, but for the time you were there for me, I felt somewhat safe, because you’re more like me than you think. Another reason why I don’t understand why this has happened. I get that you have moved on and obviously found something amazing to focus your life on now, but did you really have to just dump me out of your future? '

" I keep on thinking about all the bad things about you, and how much I used to worry about you and how I used to defend you when people would talk terribly of you. I so badly want to hate you, but I know that you’re a good person, which is what frustrates me. I know you’re a good person, you just make bad decisions... "

" I never wanted anything the way that I want you. But my words don't seem to matter. And you look at me and I can see. The lies you're running too. But my words don't seem to matter..."

- lyrics by Secondhand Serenade

And suddenly I become a part of your past, I'm becoming the part that don't last. I'm losing you and it's effortless. Without a sound, we lose sight of the ground in the throw around. Never thought that you wanted to bring it down. I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves...♥

- Over my head by The Fray

What if i fell to the floor?!... Couldn't take this anymore?! What would you do.? Come! break me down! bury me, bury me! I am finished with you!... look in my eyes... You are killing me, killing me! All i wanted was you! ...

- The Kill by Thirty Seconds to Mars

Memories...

Memories... Images of the past. Moments of when i was happy in your arms. Images of your soft gaze and the taste of your sweet lips, it's all I have left in this sad night. There are times when i can still feel your presence and I can still smell your essence. Only on those occasions, I give into the luxury of loosing myself completely in time and space. Even though your memory wants to take me to the bottom of an abyss. Even when it wants to take me to my own destruction. I admit it, I can't stop thinking about you. Your memory follows me around, everywhere i go. I've got nowhere else to hide. I'm not even safe inside my dreams. You appear every now and then, on my dreams, and you confuse my reality. You are that hope that illuminates my days every time you talk to me and at the same time yo try killing me, asphyxiating me with your absence. You voice is the sweet melody that I need to hear everyday. And even thought I want to have you once again by my side more than anything in the world; I also long for the day when I would no longer be a prisoner of this love. Of the memories, of my own pain, of your betrayal and of myself. One day you will see what you have done, that it's not just what you think. With my eyes closed, clenched fists and tears coming down my face, I admit that i still miss you and i still love you more than you can imagine, not that it matters, it doesn't make any difference. The images of those happy moments have come to invade my mind once again. Truth be told, this is becoming a masochistic thing. It hurts me and at the same time i like what I'm feeling because this is the only way to feel like you are here with me; it's the only way to know that somewhere you do exist, that you are real and not just a dream. You are my favorite mistake. Mistake because i never should have trusted you the way I did. But my favorite one because loving you was the best thing. I can't believe you were the one to make me happy and then tear me apart. Images from the most pure and sincere moments come to my mind. Also those moments of passion and the moments when we both felt pain. Tonight, with a couple of songs, I will be consumed in my own pain and then everything will be forgotten. I will be able to sleep somewhat peacefully until you show up in my dreams or until tomorrow, when your absence once again, tries to take my breath away from me and the memories invade me once again... Memories...

I know the image is from a volcano but its such a beautiful image.

" I really should stop thinking this stuff, the same stuff I thought about yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. It gets me nowhere, I need to brush it off and make myself happy, ‘cause I usually find that once I forget about the things that are bothering me, they have a habit of sorting themselves out on their own. "

" What is your problem? Why is it such a hard work to talk to you these days? Seriously, make up your fucking mind, because I feel like I’m just floating around aimlessly until you do. I have no purpose. I’m anxious. I constantly feel like I’m waiting for something or that something is at the back of my mind. I’m really exhausted at the minute, and I’m barely leaving the house so it can’t be for any real reason, just pure mental exhaustion. And the stupid part is, YOU could change it so easily, because it all depends on you, but you don’t. You just leave me hanging, yet again. "

" You can try your hardest - you can do everything within your means; but sometimes people just aren’t worth it anymore. They aren’t worth all the tears and worrying, and it’s important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down. "

" The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong I’d write you another letter. But I never sent them, in fear of what I might find. By then, you’d gone on with your life and I didn’t want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn’t want to ever forget that. "

You are like a tattoo... that i can´t remove...

REBLOG IF you can feel it when someone is staring at you.

REBLOG IF you stay online until the person you like goes to sleep, no matter how tired you are or what you have to do the next day.

" I want to be able to tell you I love you whenever I feel like it, but I can’t because I know now it’s the last thing you want to hear. "

"...and one day i hope you look back at what we had, and regret every single thing you did to let it end..."

" The reason it’s so painful when someone disappears is you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. The hard part is realizing that he was lying to you, in some way, before the moment of vanishing... "

I cry myself to sleep every night thinking about you...

" I needed to know that I meant something, anything to you. But what I got was nothing, absolutely nothing. And it’s funny the things you realize when someone walks away. At first you feel as though it’s your fault. Feeling like nothing, and so close to falling apart. But in time, you come to realize that you did nothing wrong; that it’s his loss, that you are so much better without that one boy who didn’t ever care. You live and you learn, that’s how it is... "

"I don’t want to be one of those easily forgotten people, so important at the time, so special, so influential, and so treasured, yet years later just a vague face and a distant memory. "

REBLOG IF you’ve ever wished you could click the “Back” button in real life.

REBLOG IF it’s funny how you both used to be extremely close, and now you’re complete strangers.

REBLOG IF you put things down and forget where they are 2 minutes later.

Hating people is like burning down your house to kill a rat
-Henry Fosdick

What if...

What if this time, I dont say hi first?
What if this time, I dont text you back?
What if this time, I leave you wondering?

Yeah... what if this time,
You`re the one left feeling completely fucked over.

The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being.
His heart withers if it does not answer another heart.
His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration.
- Pearl S. Buck

I`m Tired...

" I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of heartaches. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling inadequate and helpless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of how insecure I am. I’m tired of how my emotion flies around like a rollarcoaster ride. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of dramas. I’m tired of the world. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming a life I know I will never have. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of people walking out of my life. I’m tired of myself. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of lies. I’m tired of empty promises. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of wishing things could start all over again. I’m tired of not being ok. I’m tired of wondering when I’m going to be happy. I’m tired of being tired... "

This is an image i found at http://mysecret-lk.blogspot.com

"Sometimes you dont realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you"

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met"

"Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now Im falling apart"

"I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was"

"I miss you more than you'll ever know"

"All I know is that I'm lost without you"

"Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you and you meant nothing to him"

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened"

"I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell"

"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried"

"I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could drown you in them"

"You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?"

"Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I am painfully aware that I am not over him and he is over me"

"When a boy sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass"

"It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces"

" Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own "

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...
wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on.
One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares
and how lucky he is to have YOU...
The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her... "

" True love never dies, even if you have found a new love,
the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you
for the rest of your life. "

" After a while you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love.
You begin to learn that kisses don`t always mean something.
Promises can be broken just as quickly as they are made, and
goodbyes really are forever... "

Only you...

" Only you can make the darkness bright.
Only you can fill my heart with light.
Always in my thoughts but never in my sight.
Without you I don`t think I have the strenght to win this fight. "

" These things...
that appear to be holding me together...
are actually tearing me apart.
and what seems to be tearing me apart...
is actually holding me together... "

Sometimes...

Sometimes i just need someone to talk to...

Now that its all said and done.
I can`t believe you were the one to build me up and tear me down.

Days...

" We go days without having a meaninful conversation,
and i used to miss you so much when that happened...

... but it never seemed like you missed me. And i guess
because of it, I stopped missing you. "

What is life about?

"Life's not what you take, it's not about the promises you make. It's not about the friends you might of made or love that is gone. Life is what you give, it's not about the stupid things you did. It's not about the way things could have been, it's about moving on. It's all about you. So every morning when you wake before the first step that you take, just think it's all what you make it, and you'll make it through."

Don`t know...

"I don't know what to feel. What's done is done. Who knows? Maybe I will when morning comes. Right now I'm still numb."

I wish that i had never met you...

" I wish that i had never met you.
Then there would be no need to impress you. No need to want you.
No need for loving you. No need for crying over you.
No need for heartbreaks. No need for pain or tears.
No need for forgotten primises. No need for rejected hugs.
No need for crying myself to slee. No need for acting like you care.
No need for everything you have done to make me feel like absolutely nothing.

But then again, I`m glad i did meet you.
Because you were the one who always asked me if anything was wrong.
You were the one who loved me for me. The one who cared when
everyone else didn`t. The one who listened.
The one who stayed up late just to talk about the randomest shit ever.
You were the one who i told secrets to. The one who taught me new things.
The one who laughed at my bad jokes. The one who did things, just for me... "

I want...

" Things would be so much easier if i could just switch off what i feel for you.
I want to be able to say "i dont like you that way" and actually mean it.
I want us both to be able to do our own thing and for it not to bother me.
To not be bothered where you are, who you are with, what you are thinking.
I want to be able to let go and feel like im not missing a part of me.
But most of all I want you to just want what i want. And i don`t see that happening... "

seriously?

You lied to me... you betrayed my love and broke my heart... and yet you still want us to be friends? You want me to pretend that nothing happened?